Been Needing To Explain

So! I'm probably doing this at a stupid time of the morning on my phone. But considering the mood I'm in. All those shits are non-existant right now. There may be spelling mistakes as do recall, this is from my phone and I am dyslexic. I do try very hard at my spelling.

Anyhow! I'll be frank (snrk), for the past month and it seems to be very much on-going...a lot of you won't be seeing much of the fetish work from me. I genuinely have been mulling over on how to make this journal for the past two weeks, kinda hoping my proper full on 'spark' would come back before I had to write this out, but considering we're hitting december. It'll slowly be closing to two months since I've been like this.

I don't know if its so much I've just took an overdose of my fetish lifestyle and I need sometime to take a step back from it. Its actually been a very frustrating endevour, getting up at whatever time and thinking 'are we feeling it today?' Only to have the response of 'no...I very much do not.' 

Its been a big worry as I know most of you enjoy me for my fetish work, but at this rate. *shrugs* I don't know what to tell you. I think I'm in need of a serious break from most of the kinky side of it. You will probably see cutesy tickles at the most here and there if I get round to it. But my interest has literally dropped off the earth and is floating in space somewhere...hopefully to come back soon.

I'm not saying this is a permanent thing, I'm eager and waiting for that jolt to return, but I need time to be away for in instead of pushing to do it. I will try to get through commissions and I will apologise to many of you as I know the majority is fetish based. You'll unfortunately have to bare with me. I'm very much not sure if there's more root to this problem as I can tell you besides this.

I'm not sleeping. I go to bed between 11pm to maybe 12am and I'm awake around 4am to 5am. Its getting to points where I just don't even want to go to bed because I'm not seeing the point. So I'm very much struggling at the moment. I'm always tired, the only thing I'm focused on so much of lately is my art. Literally nothing else. Not games, tv, eating, my partner, my kinks, my focus is lost to a huge part of the world and I don't know where and how. 

All I would like to ask for is a little understanding and support, if I'm an arsehole to you or seem off. There's this big ol' reason behind it y'see.~ And for those who might actually be whiney little bitch holes about this. Find yourself the soor and please do the honorable thing of getting the fuck out. 

There's been a couple other stresses as of late, blood tests, I've got an MRI scan on my birthday, the stress of the holidays as well of all things....guh....so excuse me if I'm just not up for it.

Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this. Apologies if its a bit of a mess as again, on the phone. Heh. 

Peace out peeps!